God I’m so profoundly lonely though, wherever I go, internet or real life. I have a couple of people who are my only lifelines and I think they know who they are but I feel selfish asking them for help when I need it. I can’t be around anyone else though. Literally being in the same room as anyone who might talk to me brings bile up in my throat. I can’t even really stand my roommate anymore. I just want to curl up and block out all noises and be alone forever. I don’t want to bother with any human functions like eating or showering or using the bathroom or anything. I just want to sleep and wake up and sleep and wake up with nothing in between.