You know when you’re stuck in a black hole of misery and listlessness with no way to claw yourself out? 

It’s like, I can see the future and I know it might probably be possibly better than this but I’m just so tired and I don’t know how I’m ever going to get to that future because I’ve used all my energy to dig a hole ten thousand feet deep and I can still see a glimmer of light from the surface but there’s just no way I can possibly pull myself out of this hole toward it so I know that there’s something better ahead but I’m stuck down here right now and right now I’m completely lost and I don’t know how to tell anyone around me that I’m stuck in this hole because I don’t know what I even have to be depressed about? I’m just sad and I don’t know why and I can’t stop being sad and all my energy and motivation to do anything worthwhile has been zapped but I can’t express this to anyone because I’ll either underemphasize it and they won’t get it or I’ll overemphasize it and I’ll be really pretentious because really, who hasn’t been sad in their lives? Why is this different? Why is this defeating me when other people can say things like “worrying doesn’t solve anything” with perfect honesty like little insipid catchphrases can capture the complexity of human life and solve all the problems in the world?

Everyone in the world has already articulated the feeling of depression much better than I ever will, but I’m exhausted and heartbroken and very sad and I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t even want to go out and find food even though I want peanut butter really badly. I just want to sleep more.