I just take things so seriously though

Like I live in the infinite realm of possibilities and things that aren’t happening. Things that stress me out are things that nobody realizes are stressing me out because they aren’t happening and that’s the whole reason they stress me out. wth.

Then I get lost in the question, is this my fault? Because I start to extrapolate from there. If this is my fault, is it a weakness that I can’t help myself out of this hole I’ve dug myself into? Am I lazy/whiny/weak/bitchy/self-centered? If this isn’t my fault, then what is it? It’s not a medical condition. Do I deserve help? How can this be anything but my fault? And if it is my fault, etc…

Ahahahaha I’m plummeting again. That didn’t take long.