Hearing housemates outside the window and I really am cracking again

It just feels like a big fat game of Let’s Avoid Elizabeth, which is one of the stupidest things I’ve ever thought since I am actually the one doing the avoiding

I don’t eat any of my meals anymore, I avoid walking by the front of the house because the windows look like eyes that are staring at me, I literally avoid my housemates even when they are standing right in front of me and I have been reduced to hiding in my room every evening, watching fucking Merlin and pretending that I’m not a cowardly mess

Sometimes I don’t even feel like I’m real anymore. Like I’m a shadow or some stupid shit. Since no one is around to reinforce my existence to me.

How the fuck do I tell anyone this? Face-to-face? It’s hard enough with my family, whom I trust 100%. How to I tell people who are basically strangers to me without them thinking that I am fucking nuts or a selfish whiner?